Are You an Experiencer? A Personal Account
When so-called reality begins to waver
Love abounds in all things, excels from the depths to beyond the stars, is lovingly disposed to all things.
Hildegard of Bingen (Caritas Abundat)
A few days ago, in a Note, I mentioned briefly being an Experiencer and asked if any others were as well. A writer replied, grateful that I broached this subject that, until very recently, most people in mainstream consciousness would reject or ridicule. She was hesitant to write about hers and said she looked forward to having me write more about it.
I hope that sharing my experiences will help others open up about theirs. I have found it difficult to write this article because, as I begin to list my experiences under the criteria of an Experiencer, the list is too large to include them all. Experiences are not isolated; each has connections, some obvious, some subtle. The more I connect, the more I feel increasing awe and reverence. My heart opens in the knowing that this whole life has been a wonderful, mysterious experience.
What is an Experiencer?
I recently heard this term from Garry Nolan, a world-renowned micro-biologist at Stanford, (for those, like himself) who have experienced Non-Human Intelligences (NHIs). These experiences include UFO (now called UAP (Unidentified Aerial Phenomena) sightings, close encounters with what could be an ET, abduction, missing time, dream messages, supernatural occurrences, and channeling. This includes OBEs (out-of-body experiences) and NDEs (near-death experiences). Perhaps sleep paralysis, as well.
In other words, having experiences outside of the “normal” perception of reality, the materialistic view that what is real can be contacted and experienced through the senses only. Anything outside of that is fantasy.
I love watching young children play with each other; they create an agreed-upon reality for their games. If everyone plays by the rules and accepts their roles, the game works fine. However, when one starts questioning the rules and their roles, the game wavers, and often tears of hurt follow.
Societies are no different. We have our roles and rules to follow. Those who have anomalous experiences will begin to question the game and may no longer feel that they fit into it.
As more “credible” people from the military/law enforcement, government, academia, and scientific communities come forward, there will be more space for witnesses and whistleblowers to share what they know.
Serious studies are happening in the open, not just in the dark rooms of top-secret programs, with groups like Skywatcher and the Sol Foundation. They are approaching the subject with a truly scientific mind, open to all conclusions about what so many are seeing in the skies. Mainstream news is still reluctant, except for NewsNation, an independent centrist organization.
Are they extraterrestrial? Or multidimensional? Are they beings from an ancient civilization hidden on Earth? Do they come from the future? Are they celestial beings like angels? Tricksters like the Fey or Djinn? Demons with malevolent intent? A sort of AI?
We just don’t know. And those who say they know definitively, lumping everything into a category, who say they are all malevolent or all benign, I do not trust. Look at how diverse humans are.
Personally, I think they cover the spectrum of intent, especially if you include everything supernatural.
Sharing my experiences.
I have been an Experiencer since childhood, when I was drawn to the occult and discouraged by a vivid dream of a dark wolf chasing me. I vaguely remember, around 10 years of age, seeing a zeppelin-shaped or cigar-shaped craft in the distance that was rainbow, changing colors completely. I do recall staring at it in awe and dismay. I was alone at the time outside my nanny’s.
At 19, I had a near-death experience canoeing. The canoe capsized, and I plunged into the Russian River without knowing how to swim. I was soon going under for the final time into the light after crying out repeatedly. I then became awareness (like the witness in a dream without a point of reference), above the scene, watching my rescuer jump up and rush over and yank my body onto the shore. I then returned to my body, coughing and spitting up water. I was not happy to be back in this heavy body. From this experience, I knew I was not a body, and I took up the idea that life is an adventure.
From that time on, I have had numerous experiences of the supernatural kind, including astral projections, invisible entities both benign and malevolent, and paralysis. At 26, I had an awakening experience trekking solo in Nepal, near Mt. Everest. I was standing looking down on Namche Bazaar, when I was felled to the ground with an overwhelming sense of love and presence. Then I devoted my life to God, not just paranormal experiences.
While hitchhiking across the backroads of America, from Florida to California, reading an Autobiography of a Yogi, I prayed to meet my master. I came across a small group studying with this teacher outside of Flagstaff, who displayed various powers, including communicating with ETs. Or so he claimed. We watched Close Encounters in the trailer home in the desert near the Hopi Lands. He asked me if I wanted to see a ship. “Hell yeah!” He handed me binoculars and said there was one out there right now. Outside the trailer was a scout circular craft, shining in the moonlight, colored lights shining below, completely silent. I watched it disappear in the nearby cinder cone. I went looking for it the next day, but the teacher said I wouldn’t find anything since they have off-dimension bases, slightly skewed, out of synch with ours. In other words, you could be walking on a base and you would not know.
One night, while alone on the property, I saw a craft very high up in orbit move far faster than any satellite, zigzagging across the sky. (This repeated when I was in the Australian desert as well.)
A short time later, several of us, including the teacher, were sitting outside when we heard a thunderous sound. Coming into view was a large, perhaps football-sized ship, I believe trapezoidal, with a circular scout ship to either side of it. It was going off to the Hopi Lands. That was jaw-dropping. I wish I remembered more of it.
A few years later, having left the teacher, I was in Anzo Borrago in California. It was night, and my partner and I were enjoying the night intimately when a light slowly approached us from the desert silently. We stood and watched it come closer, not sure how close it was before it started to retreat slowly and finally disappeared.
From the first sighting, I had occasional dreams of “alien” beings. In these dreams, I feel only a familiarity and positive reassurance. I had a lucid dream (you know you are dreaming, and so you can do anything) where I flew into Mt. Shasta. Years later, while car camping on the mountain, I woke up at around 1:00 in the morning. I felt slightly off. Dizzy. I got out of the car on a very clear night. I then saw a glowing orb silently approach me from over the trees. I think it was car-size as it went over my head (perhaps 50 yards above) and then it rose and went to the mountain and disappeared over a ridge. I felt like I was slightly off-dimension.
While I have not been turning my mashed potatoes into sculptures of the Devil’s Tower like the main character in Close Encounters, since my first sighting, I have had a hard time believing the accepted reality and roles we are supposed to play with.
I could go on and on about the experiences included for Experiencers. Fortunately, I have had a lot of spiritual help to ground me to the earth and to being (the noumenon) so that I do not get lost in the phenomena.
How do you know if you are an Experiencer?
If your life has changed from an encounter, and your vision has widened beyond accepted reality.
Any event, whether outward or inner, that has opened doors in your perception or gives you a feeling that you do not belong, that you are different, in the sense that you are on the outside looking in. It is like you took the Red Pill that Neo took in The Matrix.
You might look up at the stars and have this incredible longing to go home—this longing I had prior to the near-drowning event. Or you might feel a kinship with all life. Interests that you held begin to lose their luster or perhaps fall away. It could be seeing some anomalous thing, or a powerful dream, or an energy exchange.
Conclusion/Beginning and the need for discrimination.
“In life, the eternal and the ephemeral are mixed up with each other in much the same way. Therefore, in spirituality, viveka ultimately refers to the ability to differentiate between the real and unreal, eternal and temporary, self and non-self, material pleasure and bliss. Thus viveka is a spiritual practice of realizing the Truth.”—Satyanarayana Dasa
We are on the cusp of entering an expanded age, where old perceptions of who we are, individually and collectively, are being shaken up. Death and birth. We are moving from the horizontal lives of caterpillars, concerned with eating leaves as much as possible. To flying above, living off the light of the sun and drinking in the nectar of unity. Many are now in a chrysalis, dreaming of future flights, soon to spread their wings.
Yet with all things, mundane and subtle, there is a risk. One must not lose oneself in glamor or spiritual materialism, addicted to experiences and the idea of being special. I have met many “messengers” who drip with the egoistic idea of being the chosen one. Or those who cannot function in the world and escape into fantasy.
Discrimination is needed to navigate through the glimmerings.
The ego, in turning away from Unity in its hope of painting the idea of separation, distorts truths for its own ends.
There is also the danger of looking for that day of arrival or deliverance. Refuge is always in the Now; this is where the quiet Presence of God dwells within.
No matter the expanded form you find yourself in or what hidden gifts become revealed, you and everyone are created by God and are in God, as God is within you.
No matter where you are or who you think you are, enjoy the journey. Know that life is an adventure, and you are never alone. In the end, we are all Experiencers from the moment we enter this life we share.
Heaven is nothing other than a revelation of the Eternal One, where everything works and wills in silent love..
Jakob Böhme
Thank you for reading. I would love to hear your experiences that changed your perception of reality. I have been interested in this field all my life, so if you have any questions, please ask. This subject is vast and is a wonderful rabbit hole. Hey, when the Vatican declared years ago that ETs could be baptized and that creation includes other worlds, we are in for a ride.
Thank you for sharing your story! Regarding the Himalayas: while reading about your experience, I wondered if you have read “Autobiography of a Yogi”. You had.
It is amazing to see how our reality has started to change bit by bit as the awareness of the existence and its dimensions open up some way or another to all the more people.